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Tuesday, October 17, 2006, 8:31 PM
Rantings.
hurhur.Just let me rant today.
Really. I need to rant.
Ms Leow made me damn sad today.
What more does she want when I've already proved to her that I'm not a lousy student?
I used to just smile at all her comments, but I can't smile today.
I hope it hasn't become a habit for her to pick on me, though I'm not the only one she picks on.
Luckily I can still hold back my tears.
But it isn't too long before I reached home that all my tears just flowed, uncontrollably.
It wasn't all about Ms Leow actually.
Someone made another comment out of the blue.
And it just dealt me another blow.
But after that I thought maybe I was too sensitive as always.
Why should I take their comments so hard?
No wonder I got super high in school.
It's always like this when something's not quite right with me.
But really, I enjoyed myself in school today after chem lesson.
Even pw was miraculously enjoyable today.
My members were amazed at how composed I was about everything.
I'm used to it thats why.
And I don't show it in school.
After all, promos are over too, so I have all the time in the world to do pw stuffs.
Really, thinking back, I think I'm becoming superwoman.
I didn't know I had such high tolerance for stress and workload.
I think I'm so damn suay la.
Last year was this guy, and this year its Ms Leow.
When's all the verbal abuse gonna end?
It just makes me feel so useless.
I'm so afraid of facing her in school again.
I don't know if I'll just cry in school and I really really don't wish for something like that to happen.
Or maybe I'm just taking everything too hard.
I don't know.
All I know is that its been a pretty bad year.